Been a while, hasn't it? Obviously, I've been less than active with the account but ideas are short, and locations are drab nearby. Couple that with a camera that works but is on it's last legs and there is nothing new. I've not even dabbled in photoshop in a long time aside from making cover art for the iTunes library.

Here's hoping everyone is well. I myself have been surviving for some time. I work mostly and there is little play or social activity. Busy with work mostly, and when there is free time, friends never call me back. Kind of a lonely existence. Couple that with an issue close to the heart that seems to be especially bothersome lately and things don't add up to a pleasant experience all too quickly. I'm over analyzing a particular relationship with a friend and in the process, likely eroding it. I would like to stop but it eats away at me. Distraction is an option but only a temporary solution.

I feel like I have so much to say but nothing really. Most are just things I want to get out and express and to a degree I have, but I hold back. So much I used to be able to say is trapped. That's what's probably eating away at me. What's worse is that I probably won't share even when given the opportunity. No offense, but I really only have one person I can share things with, but I don't really want to bear all to them either, not that they've done anything to make me trust them less, I guess...I'm just returning to what I've known growing up, quit whining and get over it.

One good thing for those who don't know, I've recently lost about 34 pounds in the past four months and still losing so far which is good. I'm hoping I do though to what end I've yet to determine.

If I had to describe how I'm feeling overall, I'd say I feel like I was back in Elementary and junior high. I was the kid who was always picked last. Just didn't expect I would come back to that place.

I'm out,
Andrew

P.S. Mood is not hungry. DA won't load the choices.

:Addendum: And ouch...just noticed one person here gone from my friends whom I didn't expect to be.